Challenge:  Forgiveness
Title: How Can I...
Word Count: 299
Spoilers: Minor ones from Dream Drop Distance.
Notes: Some of this is head-canon, so I might of messed up some stuff from DDD.
Riku had a theory, that he could do anything up to and including killing the King, and Mickey would still forgive him. The only thing he wasn’t sure on was harming Queen Minnie, but since he never wanted to get into that situation anyway, he didn’t think about it. It meant that while he trusted and admired the King with all that remained of his tainted heart, Mickey was a bad person to go to when he felt guilty over what he had done. Since the King would forgive him no matter what he did, how could RIku be sure that what he had done was forgivable?
Kairi always seemed to forgive him too, and Sora. Considering he had destroyed their world, their parents, their friends, knowing that he had given Ansem control over his body and kidnapped so many of the princesses, believing he had been the reason his best friend had become a Heartless....he didn’t know how they could do it. Riku couldn’t forgive himself even the smallest of these. He didn’t deserve this, couldn’t take this. He had tried to amend by removing himself as much as he could from their lives, but they had only come and dragged him back. Now, despite all the confidence Sora had in them, he wasn’t sure he was ready to be a Keyblade Master.
There was too much he had done to destroy the Balance, and now he was supposed to become it’s protector? Light and darkness, Kingdom Hearts and Keyblade. He was barely holding on to one while the other tried to drag him down. This test was supposed to measure the strength of his heart. Riku wondered how it would judge him, and if he would be able to withstand knowing just how much he was worth.