Lunatic Pandora

[yo-yo-san.livejournal.com]

Challenge: none.
Title: Lunatic Pandora, part 1 & 2 of 12
Word Count: 200 (total, two 100-word drabbles)
Notes: This is a twelve-drabble series, each a hundred words, under a single title. I'll be posting them two at a time for the next few days. Saïx-centric, or, more accurately, my idea of who he was before losing his heart.
Overall rating is ~PG-13 for slightly disturbing imagery.
*SPOILERS ABOUND*


I. they call you names you call yourself

To the people of the city he is Outcast Aïs who walks the streets at night screaming curses, drowning in prophetic dreams and strange obsessions; he is someone to avoid, to pity, to be wary of.

To the doctors of the hospital, he is Crazy Aïs who hears whispered voices on the wind and in his head, voices that will not be silenced, no matter how many pills they shove down his throat.

To himself he is Mad Aïs, one who has seen the future of his world, of all worlds and suffers alone because no-one else cares to believe.


II. your pain saves us from our own

He dreamed every night from his childhood, dreams of shadows, emptiness, and the tattered sound of hearts ceasing to beat; dreams from which he woke sobbing, screaming, clawing at his head and chest.

In time, his parents turned from him in fear and sadness, leaving him to cold-eyed doctors, letting them sate their hunger to create certainty from the unknown on him. They found no answers to his nightmares, and so merely prescribed useless medications. He laughed, then wept, knowing that they, too, would be soon consumed by their own appetite for darkness. The pills he vomited into the trash.

Comments

[therealkaichan]

Oooh, nice!!
I love when people take on account the "diviner" part in Saix's title, since most people just tend to forget about it.
Also, managing to make a clear image of your idea in just 100 words really deserves a special mention~!
*mems, and runs*

[yo-yo-san.livejournal.com]

^-^ I'm not the first person to be fascinated by that aspect of him, though I kind of took it in an involuntary direction. Thank you! <3 It was...an interesting project, to say the least.

[kastia.livejournal.com]

I've always wonder about Saix's life before becoming a Nobody. But I never thought he would be this crazy. Sure we al know Saix is a little crazy but not this crazy. Still, this is very interesting.

[yo-yo-san.livejournal.com]

^.^ Thanks! My theory here is that he lost most of the crazy when he lost his heart, and the berserker aspect is what's left. Thank you for reading, too!

[kastia.livejournal.com]

Thanks,
I sorta have a theory about Saix's life before becoming a nobody too,
I think his name was Ias ( pronounced E-us)and I think he grew up in Twilight Town, I just thought this because this is the first place we see him without his hood.
His personality was not as cold and heartless before becoming a Nobody, but don't get me wrong Ias could be a jerk sometimes and had some anger management problems, and was considerd by some *crazy*. I think he might have been an astrologer or something that connects to the worlds or the moon. His physical pheatures are most likley much different from his nobody form, AKA eyes, hair, scars. My guess he gained his blue hair yellow eyes and scars throuht the process of becoming a nobody after he lost his heart. My guess the scar is a result of the heartless

[kastia.livejournal.com]

My bad,I accidentally posted before finishing what I was writing! I'll continue now,

He also got his hair and eyes from the nobody process, probably the colors are related to the whole moon thing, because if you recall the colors of the moon shaped kingdom hearts was yellow with a blue border. The berseker thing is hard to support, my guess is that he was really pissed off before becoming a nobody, and was feeling the same emotion when he was attacked by heartless. That was the last emotion he felt before becoming a nobody and was sort of a remnant of his emotions and his heart. Because we know Saix has no heart, and, along with most nobodies, can feel no emotions. Unless they fool themselves into believing they have emotions. But in some cases that rage and anger sorta got morphed in during the Nobody process. His berserkyness is sorta the only emotion he can feel as either a remnant of his heart, or an emotion that was left in him and can only be triggered at will or when actions that would normally make most people angry. How the moon plays into this I'm not sure, but I heard in some quote somewhere that, " each phase of the moon affect us in different ways..." or " makes us act a certain way". I'm still working on that.
When I think about it. I feel kinda sorry for him, anger is about the only emotion he is capable of feeling, because we all know how calm and one dimensional his personality can be when he's not berserk. But he can no longer feel happiness or joy, or even laughter. *Refers to his quote in The World That Never Was*. Just anger and rage. It must be hard for him sometimes. Poor Saix, *hugs twice*
Anyways, I loved the fic, and Saix need more fans like you and me who really get in-depth with his character, or he needs more fans in general. (boy I typed a lot)
P.S
Did you check out that song I suggested,

[kastia.livejournal.com]

In case you forgot the song I suggested as a theme for Saix and your fic was Leave Me to Love by Imogen heap. Sorry If I'm bugging you. I leave you alone for know.