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[moontear.livejournal.com]

Whoo, got this done early. How 'bout that. :P Again, you're going to notice a particular theme when you read it. ^^;; Heehee.

Theme: Blame
Title: My Apologies
Word Count: 299

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This was hard.

I hadn’t expected to fall for him so easily, but I did, and here I am, gazing at the ruins of the once beautiful bastion. And I can still remember his rich, deep laughter, reverberating within my mind like… chocolate. Creamy, thick chocolate, that coated the roof of your mouth and your tongue, and you sighed in bliss from the pure taste. His laughter did that to my mind, my heart…

I should have done something to stop him. I saw all the signs, but I… I still…

I still let him get away. Let him be corrupted. Maybe if I could go back in time, say different things, do something to stop the oncoming madness—maybe then, I wouldn’t be here right now, gazing sadly at the remnants of a once beautiful cherry wood desk. It’s destroyed now… marred by the Heartless’s claws.

I traced them with my fingertips, shoulders drooping just slightly. I used to love how he said my name… like it was a caress meant only for the most delicate of ears to hear. It embarrassed me back then, and I supposed it still did—but I didn’t blush quite as much as before.

Was he really corrupted that easily? Had the darkness controlled his heart as if he were a mere puppet?

I thought you were better than that, Ansem…

I turned slightly, gazing out at the dying sunlight past the broad window located in the ruins of his study. And I remembered times long past.

…I wished that I could go back… Even if I couldn’t have done anything, I still wanted to be given a chance again to just try. Maybe I could have…

I bowed my head, eyes closing slowly. Heh. I was such… a fool…

I’m sorry.

Comments

[avatar-infidel.livejournal.com]

I really like the tone of this drabble. It aptly conveys the sorrow of a lost love whilst also touching upon the bitterness experienced by those left behind and their inevitable lapse into feeling guilty, both of which are characteristic of Leon's persona. His tendency to blame himself for things beyond his control and his strict adherence to his code of self-sufficiency, any departure from which leads him to feeling helpless and frustrated, are both portrayed nicely here. His desperate desire to change the past, too, is very tangible.

I have a strong desire to read Ansem x Leon fanfiction now. ^^