kh_drabble | [211]: "Strangers"

Title: Strangers
Challenge: [211] Apology (submission 2)
Characters: Sora, Roxas
Word Count: 260

This is meant to fit a similar theme as "Not Enough." I've seen the possibility of Sora and Roxas not "integrating" played with before, mostly in sporkings of all things. But I wanted to actually seriously examine the idea. This provides an idea of what I'm trying to portray, but I by no means claim to accurately represent those situations.

Sometimes, Sora wondered about the boy who was the other part of him. There were thoughts that crept into his mind that were not his, memories he was certain he'd never had. Emotions he couldn't explain. Disturbing moments where he felt a stranger in his own skin, waking disoriented from a half-remembered dream. He'd slept for so long, and even now there were pieces that he couldn't fit into place, things missing that shouldn't have been.

All he had was a name and a brief encounter that didn't begin to explain anything. Roxas. Golden hair and blue eyes, a face so much like his own. He'd needed Roxas to become whole, that was what Riku had said. Roxas was never meant to exist. But Sora wondered if it was right to take away the life that Roxas had, as illusory as it had been, for his own.

He was probably being stupid. After all, if he hadn't awoken, then he would not have been able to stop the Organization. Still, there were times when he looked in the mirror and was aware of someone else looking through his eyes. And he knew it was not supposed to work this way. Together, they would be whole. This duality of existence was not what anyone had expected, and neither had any say in the matter.

Maybe, eventually, he would tell Kairi and Riku.

Sora looked at his eyes in the mirror, once more. "I'm sorry," he said. Whether he meant it for Roxas, or for Riku and Kairi, he did not know.